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Sep
23

I love it when I blog every day. There’s something fulfilling about putting my thoughts down in cyber space. It’s not truly fulfilling a need to say hello world, here I am… but it’s close. Documenting my life, however mundane tickles this part of me that likes to feel important.

When people say to me, you haven’t blogged in forever I glow. They checked! They care enough about me that moseyed on over to my niche in the world wide web and poked their head in to see what I was up to. And then the weight of expectation comes crashing down on my shoulders. The more you blog, the more people expect you to blog.

Kansas City, Missouri… early 2006. I was sitting in the break room at work, glad to be away from the sink of jello and chicken… most likely picking at a small container of fried okra. Mmm, I miss fried okra… I loved that part of my job at the deli, taking home little containers of okra, fried chicken livers, and gizzards. My Grandma and I would feast on it as we sat by side at our respective computers. Ahhh, back to the actual story!

So I was sitting down, fried okra in one hand, a shiny black corded phone in the other talking to my Dad. He’d recently commented on my blog, and during the course of my phone call he told me “I miss you, and while I don’t always understand what you’re trying to say with that online journal, it makes me feel closer to you. So why didn’t you blog today?”…

Obviously I’m paraphrasing, because unless we were arguing or discussing the insane loss of the Seahawks to the Steelers during Superbowl XL, it wasn’t often our conversations lasted long, especially on the phone.

In fact, most often then went like this…

Me: Hi Daddy.
Him: Hi Rachie, let me find your Mom.
Me: Hi Mom, tell Dad I love him.

I always find myself wondering what our last words to each other were. It bugs the hell out of me that I can’t remember. The thought that it could very possibly Hi Daddy and nothing more eats away at my soul. Yesterday as we were coming home from our favorite swimming hole a song came on the radio that made my throat choke up. Becky and Liam were with us in the backseat, and I have to give props to Chris who didn’t say a thing about the tears both of us suddenly started to have running down our cheeks.

It was like synchronized crying. My chest swelled every time I hear Becky sob, my own tears rained down harder. Her hand was on my shoulder, fingers so small and warm compared to my freezing ones… we turned the radio off after Brad Paisley and Dolly Parton stopped warbling together, and we laughed. It was one of those moments… we had so many of them right after Dad died.

I resolved then and there, for what must be the millionth time in the past 3 years that my last words to the people I loved were going to be something I could remember. Words of love, power, and meaning. Or at least minor importance. Don’t get me wrong, there will still be meaningless conversation and trivial arguments… but I’ll work harder to make them something I can remember.

Blogging is simply a one sided conversation, isn’t it? At least to start. It’s my way of saying hello, I’m alive and well. You may not get it, or even care… but at least you’re here. Witnessing what could be my last ramble. It’s important to me, and I’ve got to give that more credence. No more whining about how I don’t have time or inspiration… it’s all excuses.

So here’s Day 1 of Forever.

Jun
20

Daddy, originally uploaded by Shiny (aka Rachel).

Words can never say enough… Thanks for being you, for never backing down or giving up. For teaching me to believe and not be ashamed. I love you, and I can say without a doubt you were the best Dad ever.

Daddy

Daddy

Daddy

Jun
13

Garden Deer, originally uploaded by Shiny (aka Rachel).

One of the best parts of summer is the garden. We were hoping to put in raised beds this year and go the distance, but instead we had to settle for carving up a few feet of dirt around the front porch. It was a short project, all we did was dig it up, lay down weed paper… brick it in, and then fill it with dirt. Oh, and we planted the vegetables of course. All in all I think it took us 8 hours from picking out the plants to picking the dirt out from under our nails.

And then it rained for two weeks and we didn’t have to water. Hooray! I’ve already eaten strawberries off the plants, and my tomatoes are flowering. There’s 2 Early Girls, 2 Better Boys, and 1 Sweet 100. Plus 2 red bell pepper plants, and 3 strawberry plants that are already multiplying.

My in-laws are moving to North Dakota in a few weeks, so they gave us another tomato plant, a green pepper plant, and a potted rhododendron (to go with the huge bushes and trees already in the yard). Luckily Chris -loves- yard work. Our “little” garden and huge yard is his job. He’s been whining to me for weeks about the deer signs he’s seen in the yard, I didn’t believe him.

Backyard Deer

Until now! We saw this beautiful creature in the back yard a while back and luckily had the camera on hand. So Chris has put Liam on “deer duty”… and he loves it. I swear, my nephew is addicted to the back of our couch. he lays like this for hours just looking outside, although half the time he falls asleep.

Liam

Jun
06

burritos ready to eat, originally uploaded by Shiny (aka Rachel).

When we decided to split living quarters with my sister and her family, I had a list of things I wanted to accomplish. The primary thing was saving money, which we don’t seem to be doing… and the rest were simple ideas that revolved around learning from each other. Chris and I are infinitely different than Becky and her husband. We’re homebodies, they like to go out, we eat well, they live off mac & cheese, we pay our bills on time, they don’t.

Ok, so honestly – the main objective was them learning from us. Although Chris and I have certainly picked up a few tricks. We’re out more, doing things together and enjoying life away from the computer and television. I like to think Becky and Ryan are learning from us too. We’ve certainly been pushing, helping them learn to budget and be responsible around the house. One of the most fun “goals” has been teaching my sister to cook.

I manage to drag her into the kitchen every now and then, and show her how to make a few of our favorite dishes. There have been recipes from our childhood, and new ones she’s fallen in love with too. Homemade teriyaki sauce was a hit, and so were my enchiladas… recently I made burritos, and she’s been asking me ever since if we could make them together.

One of the things I missed most after becoming gluten free was freezer friendly food. Specifically, burritos and corndogs. I’ve yet to find a recipe that looks manageable and actually resembles corn dogs – but I have managed to put together a delicious burrito dish. It sort of fell together one it’s own, and has been modified many times depending on what was in the cupboard. The recipe below is my favorite way to make these, but you can change it up quite easily by using jalapenos, different cheeses, rice, ground turkey or shredded chicken.

Often times I’ll simply put the leftover cooked filling in a bowl and give it to Chris with a bag of tortilla chips. He loves it so much that I’ve actually served it that way to company as an appetizer. The best thing about this recipe though, is it’s cost. Canned beans are cheap (the dried ones even more cost effective, but I’m lazy), as are most of the ingredients.. And like I mentioned before, most of these items are staples in my gluten free pantry. Plus it makes an insane amount of food, meaning you can put some away in the freezer for quick snacking.

So on to the recipe! (Written for a first time cook.)

You’ll need:

  • Frying pan
  • Spatula or spoon
  • 2 9 x 13 baking pans
  • Cheese grater
  • Bowl
  • Knife
  • Cutting board
  • Potato masher
  • Plate
  • Damp towel, or paper towels.
  • Microwave
  • 20 small corn tortillas
  • 15oz can pinto beans
  • 15oz can kidney beans
  • 15oz black beans
  • 10oz can Rotel tomatoes
  • 1 large onion, diced
  • 3 cloves garlic, diced
  • 1 tbsp ground cumin
  • 1/2 tbsp salt
  • 1 tbsp black pepper
  • 1 tsp cayenne pepper
  • 1 tsp chili powder
  • 1lb hamburger
  • 1lb cheddar cheese, shredded
  • Splash of milk or water
  • 3 tablespoons oil

Directions:

  1. Preheat your oven to 350 degrees.
  2. Grate the cheese.
  3. Open, drain, and rinse all the canned beans.
  4. Open the Rotel tomatoes and keep close.
  5. Chop your onions and garlic finely.
  6. Heat a tablespoon of oil in the frying pan over medium heat.
  7. Put in your onions and cook until almost soft, add oil if needed.
  8. Add garlic in the pan and cook until the onions are starting to brown.
  9. Add in hamburger, and cook until done.
  10. Turn burner heat to medium low.
  11. Add in all of the beans.
  12. Stir.
  13. Add in the entire can of Rotel.
  14. Add in the dry spices.
  15. Stir a few more times.
  16. Using the potato masher, mash the beans until about half of them are creamy instead of whole.
  17. Stir in ¾’s of the cheese.
  18. At this point you can add the milk if you want a creamier texture.
  19. Wrap 4 tortillas in damp towel and microwave. (You will have to do this repeatedly. Make sure the tortillas are soft before working with them!)
  20. Put a spoonful or two of filling into the now pliable tortillas.
  21. Roll closed like a burrito or soft taco.
  22. Place in pan, seam side down.
  23. Repeat until the pans are full.
  24. Sprinkle with cheese.
  25. Cook in preheated oven until the cheese has melted.
  26. Serve with sour cream, salsa, or any other preferred condiment.
  27. Enjoy!

burritos in the pan

burrito filling

Jun
01

Our recent trip gave me a chance to meet quite a bit of Chris’ family that I hadn’t been introduced to before. Several people stood out, but these three… I’m in complete and utter love. Chris’ brother is only two weeks younger than I, and recently had his third child. Talk about pressure.

Regardless, his children are absolutely lovely. I wasn’t sure there was room in my heart for any more nephews after meeting Liam, but Joshua is just enchanting… and the two girls… I can’t stop looking at their pictures. Such beautiful eyes. The green/hazel shade is exactly the same as Chris’ and gives me hope that my children won’t be saddled with my boring brown eyes.

Take a look and you’ll see what I mean.

Hannah
Those eyes, that smile, the wayward hair… Hannah is 4.

Hannah
It’s a wonder I didn’t pack her into the van and hope my brother and sister in law didn’t notice…

Chris & Hannah
I think they would have missed her though… Chris did try to chase her down. I won’t tell you who won that race.

Sarah
Sarah, who is 2… was shy. Luckily the zoom on my camera works quite well.

Sarah
I’m looking forward to sticky hands and sleepy eyes…

Jessice "Mommy" & Sarah
And dirty faces too…

Grandma and Joshua
Karen was reluctant to let go of her first grandson, Joshua who is about 2 weeks at the time of these pictures.

Josgua
He looks just like his dad, really…

Joshua
A yawn goodbye is as good as a wave…

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May
25

Liam & Mom, originally uploaded by Shiny (aka Rachel).

I ate entirely to much at the family Memorial Day Barbecue today. My Mom made ribs, coleslaw, corn on the cob, fruit, potato salad, baked beans, iced tea, and brownies… mmm, everything but the rolls were gluten free. With all the food there I didn’t miss the bread at all. Every family meal gets easier, I have to explain and worry less.

I have to say, living down here around my mother, and Chris’ parents had made the holidays much more enjoyable. Every week it seems like there’s something going on with one side of the family, or both.

A bunch of people from work dropped by the bbq to eat and play with bunnies, so I didn’t take pictures. Instead, I thought I’d share a few from Easter… Yeah, a little bit late… sorry!

Becky looking at Liam

Ryan

Mom

Chris

May
24

Daddy: What are you eating under there?
Me: Underwear?
Daddy: You’re eating underwear?

A joke I never failed to fall right in to. Every time I sighed and swore the next time would be different.

If he you here today, I’d happily admit to eating underwear. No matter how much it would make you laugh at me.

Words don’t begin to explain how much I miss you.

I miss you, even after 3 years.

ashes

Strange, how my last memory of you is sitting in Subway, laughing at me for ordering bacon on my tuna sandwich.

Love forever,

Rachel

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